HAHA.. whoooooo~ campfires over.. i dunno why.. but i feel much better aft its over.. i mean.. haha... all the stress is finally GONE! gone! yay!! haha.. i love this feelin manxx.. but now hafta to catch up with all the homework i left blank during all the campfire preps... sigh man.. i really gotta work hard.. and start exercising.. realli weakening like hell.. i mean like last time still can carry benches and tables and hand wont really hurt.. but ya... aching now.. anyways. just a brief overview of what happened. rush rush rush. then okay.. campfire prep... kinda okay.. supposed to help e PA. so like blur blur. but at elast we didnt screw up :) not like last time.. ahaha. thank mi.. :P jk jk jk.. anyways.. like the dance i was still rather blur la.. cos i didnt really get my step proper and stuff. and ya lah. before we knew it. the campfire arrived.. then yups.. and it ended.. i dun realli know what was going on.. but i think the prog was a bit messy cos stuppiiiddd RI scouts suddenly say they dun wanna dance. so like what did they say?? then oh my gosh mans... then got northview dance instead.. stupid RI. you suck man!! okkk.. no offence.. im just a bit disappointed that i cant get to see em dance.. i love their dance.. very cool :) hahaha. kk.. anwyays. aft the campfire ended. i and rasiah went a bit siao siao.. keep carrying the tables. actu supposed to let hte NCC carry. so it was like JH and ZK keep like.. i help la i help la. then we were like noooo.. we wanna carry. then this rasiah i think realli went mad la. she walk so fast. then i had to keep up until wanna die. then ZK say then we like a bit crazy.. wanna torture ourselves. yah i think we were a bit mad la. cos aft that got blister. and this poor ZK keep having to follow us around and helping us when we had to carry the table up the big steps. haha. sorri la :) then my wound i think the skin peeled off and it started bleeding and got a bit of pus. yuccckkss. haha. wells. i had to admit carrying tables was fun.. :D hahaha.. anyways. later on at nite we were telling ghost stories. i kinda was sleeping. wanted my rest. so wells. yup. slept earliest. then JF then rasiah. anyways.. woke up.. then washed up.. then clear up and zhao. hahah. then went to j8 with the other 2 crazy ppl. ate and stuff. then went home. sleep. then go rush thru nat's pres cos i tot he already left e house and coming over soon. then in the end rite.. haiyo!! he not even going out yet lor.. then okays.. met him.. haha. he cut his hair again.. he got prob with his hair la :P then tok tok tok.. yups.. didnt spill out as much crap as i was "supposed" to.. anyways.. he gave mi the pres la.. thanks alot :P haha. very funny

haha.. guess what...... kinda fainted today.. woke upp.. cant even open my eyes.. parent yelling at mi... i dunno what happened... tried to rebuke and then i was kinda drinking my mocha. then like walk into my room... then i drink drink drink... then i fainted. haha. i dunno what fainted realli means. but i guess i just went drowsy and crash on the bed.. to tell you the truth.. haha.. i guess its a blessing in disguise.. i got the rest i needed.. for the moment.. then i went to cheong my guide stuff.. now feeling tired again. and rather stressed.. huixin is coming tm.. shes our young adult.. so like.. we haf to get our dance ready.. and i dun even know the dance steps anymore... then like.. tm is full dress rehearsal ler... die.. haiyah.. mum quarrelling with my brother.. i dunno whats wid em again.. brother doesnt like my dad... thats kinda mean.. haixx.. who am i to say anything.. okays.. thanks alot ppl.. guess thats all for today..

thankyou God for my rest...

running out of ideas abt what to name my posts liaos.. anyways.. havent been getting up to standard results.. i dunnoo.. used to get As for my sciences.. still getting em.. but its more of the A2s then a1s.. not very happy abt this... i know i may be asking too much.. but im a triple sci student.. and i must live up to expectations.. and like.. i dunno. mabbe im putting too much stress on myself or what.. i just like cant seem to let go of things. mabbe thats why im so stressed over guides.. im a perfectionist. like many say >.<>

anyways... for be yourself they we are gonna dress as couple. mi and mabel and yc and wc... actu... yc supposed to be mine one you know =P haha. the difference btw both couple is that i and mabel still steading and the other two ar.. married liaoxx.. humph! nvm.. we slow and steady rite mabel? =) whoops.. haiyah.. how ar.. jf, yumin, rasiah and ky actually wanna wear that tee one.. mabbe i wear inside? =) can can?? =) anyways.. cant wait to head out again with you guys and stuff.. sept hols we must realli go for our movie marathon yahs?? =)

thankyou God for being there for me, filling mi with strength when i grow weak =)

On a Monday I am waiting
Tuesday I am fading
And by Wednesday I can’t sleep
Then the phone rings
I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cause you’ve come to rescue me

Pieces Of Me By ashley simpson

kk... blogging this damm late.. not realli late for mi.. but wells. oneof my latest blogging ever.. anyways... kinda like damm awake now.. cos i drank two mocha. went to slp at 10. woke at 11 at nite. and start studying again. quite happi with the stuff ive done. althought nv complete mush homework but its a start.. :) anyways.. screwed up my ss. kinda like look at the paper. and paper stare back at mi.. wells. then i crap crap crap.. then the whole thing look like graffetti paper lidat. haha. but my amaths result i quite happi la.. i mean from a 50 over 100 that kinda marks.. i got a 80 over hundred.. whoo! i really must thank god mans.. anyways. kinda had a guide meeting with me group.. hehe. i like my juniors. they realli damm cute and farnie la.. then like when they call mi mam also feel a bitty funny. but now my sec 2s like dun realli bother to call mi liao. onli e sec ones still calling mi dat >.<>! better stop. needa go to bed~


thank you god for my juniors =)


We've got a secret, but our lips are sealed
Hush my darling, don't you cry
Silent angels - forget their lies
Can you hear them they talk about us
Tellin' lies, well that's no surprise
Can you see them, see right through them
They have no shield, no secrets to reveal

Our Lips Are Sealed by hilary duff

haha.. kk yumin i blog i blog.. haha.. i blog quite often now hor.. not like last time =p anyways.. wells.. abt the jap exchange thing.. anyway.. i dun think im fit for it anyways. im inconfident and stuff.. and i hate travellin and leaving everything behind.. it just seems very unrealistic and stuff.. i love staying at home.. i know im weird.. wells.. yeaterday kinda cried.. AGAIN!! argh.. im beginning to find myself so idiotic and stupid... i just felt so stressed and stuff.. i dunno la.. maybe its not my frens fault. its just that i let things heap on mi.. so wells.. maybe they think.. haiyah... i dunno... i mean... dun think so much.. its your job anyways... just do your work.. dun complain.. haiX.. i dunno... alot of ppl rushing mi for stuff.. im already like so behind in homework.. sigh.. im hopeless.... i cant cope.. im SUPPOSED to.. i have to.. im a sec 3 i have to be responsible and manage my time properly.. im such a idiot... i guess.. im supposed to give up all of my entertainment... must devote ALL my time to guides and homework liao.. it may be hard.. but i will do my best.. giving up my daily runs... giving up my afternoon naps.. giving up my early sleeping tim (haha.. wow.. sleeping at 1200 is very earli!!) anyways. i PROMISE i will finish ALL my assigned jobs by this week. if i dun...... ill torture myself to... i dun care... i cannot disappoint anyone anymore... okays. now that i placed sum pressure on myself i feel better =) hahaa.. im really realli weird huh? =P


thank you God for backups =) thank you god for neoprint machines =D heh~ Thank you for esther and sara and all my best buds!! plus my lil bear and its.. owner? =)

I wanted you right here with me
but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm sayin'
I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees Ooooh, ooooh
Get out
Leave By JoJo

haha.. you know... aft today rite.. i realise what im really afraid of in life.. failure.. i cant stand failure... i dunno why.. you know it was like yesterday.. i was crying. cos i knew i couldnt finish mugging my chem.. i knew what was gonna happen in the test... i mean this was realli realli the first tm i never studied for a test.. so i felt so helpless. and then i just cried and stuff.. i dunno why im gettin so emotional these days. i cant take it man.. i hate this crying stuff.. its just so... wells... erm.. unlikemi? actu i cry alot.. but like.. wells. not because of things like this.just wanna say a big thankyou to nat yah... thanks thanks thanks.. haha.. realli appreciate it. i owe you lots.. wells. today i screwed up. i big time screwed up. i was so bloody confident... overly.... now i finally understand what it means that pride comes before a fall.. hahaaaa.... i so deserve it... i realli realli deserve it man... haha... after that... i knew what was coming.. the dread of failure... i dunnoo.. i was just in this whole state of like.. depression... u know what? i keep calling my frens muggers. actually im worst than any one of em.. i cannot stand failure. i mug like shit for the marks.. im like... jealous... of ppl smarter than mi... i mean... like comeon la belicia. whats your prob.. you are acting like a kid man... sighx... sorry to my frens.. ive been such an idiot.. im very very sorry... im not that nice as all of you think i am you know... im one black sheep among all of you.. freak.... i dunno what im gonna do now man.. i just feel... dead.....

thank you God for giving mi what i realli deserved...

so let mi slip away
so let mi slip away
so let mi slip away
==Vindicated==

hahaha.. wells... erm.. kinda was doing chem todae... finished my phys mugging.. oh ya.. realised my blogs ar... really freaking long ler... very ugly. so im gonna try to shorten it.. anyways.. ya la.. so fun to irritate my brother. i was like see ar.. this this this happens and this this this will result la.. and thats what you get RESPIRATION! and then my brother was on the verge of wringing my neck =P hahaha. except i was yelling and screaming everytime he moved dangerously towards mi. then later went to meet nat. stupid brother say wanna wait for mi. LIAR!! >.<>

Thank you god for instant soup... =)

Hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
winding in winding out
shine of which has caught my eye
and roped mi in
so memerising
so hypnotising
so captivated....

Vindicated BY dashboard confessional?? (whoops)

haiyoo.. today ar.. i mean it very damm shit la.. whoops. k im gonna be using a lil vulgarities so ppl bear wid mi ya? =) wells. like i woke up. apparently he never ans my sms. so i was ok.. well. nvm.. then this crazy ZK huh. i was smsing him last nite. a bit lame la we all. he did his usual greeting of ppl with the national pledge (national day) so like.. wells. crapped a bit. then went to bed. then ok la. then nat finally smsed. he said that his mum thinks im distracting him. wells. i mean i guess they already kinda guessed liao. so wells. i was thinking very very hard what to sms. i dunno why la. at that point of time i just saw only one ending. and that was a breakup. im sorry nat la. i mean at that pt of time i was kinda depressed already. and i didnt really think abt anything else.. but yah... i kept my sanity. so i didnt really say much... then wells... i told him we had to tok... aft his test... cos i wanted to get clear sum stuff... then he was like asking. what do u wanna tok about... i really didnt know what i was thinking la.. i just felt so depressed as if like we were gonna breakup already then the tears started coming down. then i was like.. oh man.. so i kinda knew i didnt wan it to happen.. and then i told him... just wanna talk about how to work things out. then i think my stupid nick la.. killed mi man.. cos i wrote something tt sounded like having a breakup at the end. so like.. he assumed that was i wanted to talk about. so like.. i guess my words wasnt realli phrased in the way i wanted it to be. so it added on the suspicions. so like when i told him it was kinda for our own good that we listened to our parents for the moment and that i didnt mean i wanted a breakup. he didnt realli believe. so i was like... i dunno how to describe that feeling. i mean like i was angry and sad.. not really angry la. bt... wells. i jus started crying again. this time i realli cried la.. and like i smsed damm fast. so like wells. had to fix up my eyes a bit later =p k.... shant realli reveal that much bt wells.. we are still together =) happy ending =P


ThankYou God for wacky frens that make you laugh even though you are actually crying...

You were everything,
everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be,
but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

My Happy Ending By Avil LavignE

erm... dun get the wrong idea okays? IM HAPPY. IM NOT SAD =P

hahaxx... actually wanted to blog on that day itself but yah.. both mi andmy brothers com kinda crashed.. *what luck* so yahs... here i am blogging now.. okays. tell ya guys abt friday.. it was kinda fun la. i was realli looking forward to that day to start wid. so yah :) hahaha. then the prog was a bitty sian. collected newspaper half the ppl werent there. and like i think i was kinda bad la. i was like let the guys take. hahaa.. poor ZK and ZY. they were like so loaded with newpapers.. =P heh heh... anyways.. yupx.. that was all la. then i was like heading to j8 wid simoneEe. wanted to get flowers for =P so like. yay! comp. hahaha. so anyways. we headed there. went to check out the flowers. wanted to buy roses. the PURPLE ones =p haha. then like nvm la. they are so ex and not like guys will like flowers anyways rite? so just got e african daisies. and also got the water bottle for him. n ate. then this yc and erhem erhem came la. then i and simone realli felt so guilty mans. it was like the moment he sat down. he like dun tok to her. so signal for us to leave. and we took it. hahah. k la k la. it wasnt that bad. he just seemed a bit uncomfy wid us. so wells. yup. left to plaza sing to find sara and est. meeting for irobot movie. then yups. saw them. they were with RGS gals. two. avonne and this other gal. ltr avonne left. so it was just the 4 of us. so we went to mos and ate. the strawberries were nice man!! hahaha =) then later we headed to HMV by foot=) yes. by foot. kinda made frens with that gal already. so i was kinda playing wid her hair and sutff =) i love her hair manxx!! =P like YC's one!! whEee!! okays. took np. then i think it was kinda an eyeopener for that gal. cos we came up with alot alot of poses. and like i think many ppl dun realli do that la... i mean they feel tt they must look nice in a np. okay. ya they must. but i mean the most impt is ya muz have fun rites??? =) hahaha. wells. i looked ugly in all the np so it didnt matter. no time to decorate. there was this np that i and sara aacted as guys and est and that the gal weres the gal.. okays. that sounds stupid. so like yep. i wrote "dun snatch our gals" hahah. so nice!! haha. then rushed back for show. using the law of majority, we convinces sara to watch the house of flying daggers. cos like the gal said she wanted to watch. then i was like yeah yeah!! mi too!! then both of us were getting enthu and stuff. and sara said she dun wan. so we were like esther!! ya wanna watch? then est said yes. cos that jap guy was inside. ahah. so sara was like... okay okay! :=) we are just so good at this mans!! haha. the show was good!! n like later on i had to rush for the AP. so like yups. ran all the way there. almost got banged down.. and like the two "guards" there were practically glaring at mi. so i like sorri sorri~! then i rushed in. this scout stopped mi. then i tot wat. then he gave mi a prog booklet. hahah. so funnie manx. then yups. mainly it was kinda grand and stuff.. their footdrill rawks man!! oh man... nat!! im jealous!! =P lets go torture our juniors =) hehe... kk.. aft YC come kill mi. ahah. then later rites. i mean cos we went to see nat. haha. then he was like... funny =P then later.. his sis tapped mi. and she seemed damm happy to see mi... cos she prob can suan nat later... haha.. then she was hey hey belicia! then i was like.. hallos! wheres ur parents. then i was thinking of running wid YC liao. then i saw his dad. then i was like.. shit... then running ma.. so was like.. greet? dun greet? then i was like heck la. anyways they ll know im here anyhow. so like HALLO UNCLE!! then i think i was realli loud. then he was like hallo~ hahah.. oh man.. im so shameless... anyways. i didnt get a chance to pass him his pres. so like.. hmm.. sms. then later he called and said he was in the canteen. so i and yc went to find him. then i pass him his stuff la. then like... he said thanks. talked a bit. ad you know what.. his old platoon leader. super tall =P okok being sarcastic again =) sorri la!! hehe. wells. he go pat nats head and said ACSM can flirt liao ar. then i was like.. ermmm... walauXx. i was so paiseh la.. then i wanted to run off liao. then another guy came and pat his head. hahaha... lil boy =P wells... later met him again la. then like tok a bit. then pat his back la. then we went off liao... haha. kinda fun man... =) then on the train ride was tokking to him all the way. then felt very bad cos i was kinda neglectin YC. im sorry YC!! =( anyways! its fun anyhow =) so yupx. everyone continue jiayou ing ar!! one more week!! =)

thankyou god for my hp =) or else i prob be lost somewhere round orchard trying to get to SJI >.<

im sorry that i hurt you, it smthing i must live wid everyday....
and all the pain i put you thru...
i wish i could take it all away..
and be the one who catches all your tears..
--The Reason BY hoobastank

haha.. ive been a very bad gal recently. first i kinda like told nat off... i mean sigh la bels. youknow you are not supposed to go make him troubled and you purposely lidat lidat lidat.. ive been a very inconsiderate gal.. yahs.. sighs. sorry sorry... haiyo... now i feel damm guilty.. ticked my cousin off too... i guesss i was just being pissed... im sorrie JJ... erm... i make it up to ya sumday.. heh heh. anyways hes not reading this... kk... back to today. it was quite funny in bio... we got a great teacher man!! miss ho rawks!! ok.. i mean i realli hated bio until she came. so yupx.. hahaha. but i still dun like studying for it. she very lame thought. what qi gong for breathing in.. hahaha. aiyah... i dun wan miss sek back. i know i very bad la.. but i mean i think miss ho is a much better teacher. miss sek knows her stuff but errr.. a bit boring >.<>



thank you God for interesting teachers :)


im picking myself up.

haha.. i dunno abt you ppl out there but i cant seem to see my own blog. that really sucks :( hahaha.. sighs.. life had been realli messy for mi these day. im soooo... sigh. okay. i shall refrain from using any "foreign language". i dunno.. but im realli stressed. im in this like... blur state. where i keep thinking and thinking about all the guides stuff n it just doesnt seem that feasible to mi. im bloody hopeless.... haha. i know i havent been coming online or stuff. thats cos my com crashed on mi. hah. im so lucki. rite... k. i know im being stupid spastic ranting over here... but... haiXx... i dunnooe... i still havent got a proper schedule of my work and test. okays. i knoe im slow. but i need a schedule to get mi back on track. and guess what? in the end i haf to do the proposal on my own... hahahaha. i lead a sad life huh? everyday i slp i dream abt how to make that thing work. how issit gonna look like. im a sad case of a living robot. rite... okay okay.. im sorry i had to start my ranting the moment i get to blog.. wells. i guess this is how my life is supposed to be la.. sumtimes i should learn from ppl and start ignoring things that i should not be bothered wid. haha....

k shuddup bels....

yupxx.. sorri i had to let it all flow out... now you see im not that nice lil gal :P haha. as if i ever was. kk. i stop my blabbering.

LOVE YA PPL!!! JIAYOU FOR ALL THE PPL OUT THERE HAVING COMMON TESTS!! im sure you guys can make e mark. 3seveners le!! :) haha. im the tyco go in one. so yupx. all e best yah? :) oh yah. stress can make ppl slim down one wors. tts according to my cousin. so stress more a it can have slim figure, meinu :P heh heh. dun think it works for mi. cos when i stress i drink alotsa mocha plus pop in alot of chips... and the list goes on :( hahaha.


hey wai... issit my imagination or e tagboard seems not to be working ar?


thank god 4 frens who listen while you cry, whisper while you are silent, stays by you when you are lost, grabs your hand when you lose your grip, catch you when you fall and love you no matter what.






im lost.